Hey……
Ok, so long time no speak on this place. First my internet broke and I still haven’t got my dongle back for it L and in general it has been really really hectic!!! On the plus side this is my last week down south and then I shall be of to sunny old Blackpool J
Im getting a tad scared now. It’s all becoming more real everyday. Packing is a nightmare and I wish I didn’t have to do it!!! I only have 4 days left to do it and I have like 3 rooms to do yet.
Me and Kay are finally together….. to every ones surprise!!!! My family took it really well which I was surprised about I thought they would be really pissed at me but they all said they just wanted me to be happy. Which is good I suppose? J
Everything is going really well between me and Kay and I am so glad I finally decided to stop pushing her away and actually give her a chance J
I wish that things were simpler though, because we have been friends for so long it’s really difficult not to act like she is just my best friend. Some times I worry that she thinks I am being off with, which im not. I dunno I just can see sometimes that it gets to her if I don’t kiss her or cuddle her. Im not used to doing it I haven’t been in a proper relationship for a while and I’m really not sure how to act. Now I know that’s a really silly thing to say but I honestly don’t know how to act around her. Not only have I not been in a relationship for a while I have NEVER been in a relationship with a girl. I know it shouldn’t be that different but it is, especially when you have been best friends with that girl for like 2 years. It makes a huge difference!!!!!!!!!
I will figure it I’m sure, I just can’t wait to get away from here. Things will be such much easier once I am not here and don’t have to worry about the people down here. I want a clean slate, a new brick lol!!!!! I think this is the one thing that could finally change all the little things I don’t like about my life. Well I hope so any way because I don’t want this to fail like everything else.
Anyway considering I am at work I should probably get some work done.
So have a dandy day
Blessed Be
Zowie x
Monday 30 March 2009
Monday 23 February 2009
I never seem to say quite what i mean.
I have spent all week trying my very best to NOT loose my temper. Now every one i know knows that im not a very patient person. You can delay things for a certain amount of time but after a while i will just loose my temper!!!
I cant tell her what i am feeling!!! I know its really bad to hide these things from her but at the end of the day i dont think she needs to know that i am literally feeling like i want to rip somebodys head off. She has so much going on but sometimes it really does seem like no one of bothering to make the effort to actually get this shit done!!!! I hate it when people bury their heads it the sand!!! It actually really narks me!!! I know that somethings cant be helped and i know that if you could then you would but that doesnt change the fact that i am 300 miles away from home wishing that i could be somewhere. I came here with all good intentions of going on holiday, come on i think i deserve one now!!!! I have spent so long waiting around for shit to happen and now it feels like people are doing just to get at us!!!!
I dont want to risk telling anyone how i feel because it sounds slightly selfish!!! Yes i am being a tad selfish here but mainly i am pissed off because they are fucking Manga around!!!
I have the uncontrollable need to get into bed put the duvet over my head and stay there until this has all passed over!!!!
I want to feel the sunlight on my face without feeling like it is out to burn me!!!!
Blessed Be
Pixie x
I cant tell her what i am feeling!!! I know its really bad to hide these things from her but at the end of the day i dont think she needs to know that i am literally feeling like i want to rip somebodys head off. She has so much going on but sometimes it really does seem like no one of bothering to make the effort to actually get this shit done!!!! I hate it when people bury their heads it the sand!!! It actually really narks me!!! I know that somethings cant be helped and i know that if you could then you would but that doesnt change the fact that i am 300 miles away from home wishing that i could be somewhere. I came here with all good intentions of going on holiday, come on i think i deserve one now!!!! I have spent so long waiting around for shit to happen and now it feels like people are doing just to get at us!!!!
I dont want to risk telling anyone how i feel because it sounds slightly selfish!!! Yes i am being a tad selfish here but mainly i am pissed off because they are fucking Manga around!!!
I have the uncontrollable need to get into bed put the duvet over my head and stay there until this has all passed over!!!!
I want to feel the sunlight on my face without feeling like it is out to burn me!!!!
Blessed Be
Pixie x
Wednesday 11 February 2009
Sorry lack of time
Hey,
Sorry for the lack of blogs this week. It has been really busy this week.
Everything is going wrong it is really annoying i hate being stressed. I think that maybe i have some how offended fate. I want it to be April already.
Things seems to be moving smoothly with all the travelling and planning but the money just doesnt seem to want to show its face :(
I have decided to hold everything at arms length for a while until i am a tad more stable upstairs!!! I think that if i had carried on the way i was going i would of hurt somebody and probally myself aswell.
Sunday 8 February 2009
Weekend Blurs .....
Ok, this weekend has passed stupidly quickly. I have done nothing just so i could make time drag out more and still i feel like i was only at work yesterday.
The doing nothing part is fantastic. I have spent all day laying in bed with Manga watching The L Word. Whoo yea its the most fantastic programme EVER......
I enjoyed the later part of the day to but thats not for innocent ears :P:P
We went on a random day out in Alton yesterday even though we only there for like 3 hours it was still fun :D:D I brought new tops. I love charity shopping i always find really nice tops when i am charity shopping lol.
Any way i will update more later i really need to visit the bathroom and get ready to go out.
Blessed Be
Pixie x
The doing nothing part is fantastic. I have spent all day laying in bed with Manga watching The L Word. Whoo yea its the most fantastic programme EVER......
I enjoyed the later part of the day to but thats not for innocent ears :P:P
We went on a random day out in Alton yesterday even though we only there for like 3 hours it was still fun :D:D I brought new tops. I love charity shopping i always find really nice tops when i am charity shopping lol.
Any way i will update more later i really need to visit the bathroom and get ready to go out.
Blessed Be
Pixie x
Thursday 5 February 2009
Finalising the good byes :D:D:D
WHOOP WHOOP............
It only took half an hour yayyyyyyy....
Ok i know you have no idea what im on about so i shall enlighten you :P:P
I have just spent the last half hour writing my resignation letter for work. Its really god damn difficult. I wanted to be nice and say that im not leaving because of them but i partly am. I hate it there lol. Although my main reason for leaving is Manga and wanting to travel i dont think hating my job put up much of an arguement for staying lol. I managed to keep in short and sweet with the help of my muse :D:D:D
Im glad she was here otherwize i would of bambled on for pages.
Everything else today has been really annoying and tedious. Im really pissed at a certain person and feel slightly like his human punch bag at the moment. Now im all up for being there for a friend but i dont appreciate getting abuse because his g/f is a physcotic, over paranoid freak.
* Little rant over (Pixie is officially mashed :D:D)*
I get to spend the next two months of my life running around like a headless chicken and trying to persuade people that it is a good idea to let me go off travelling with no real money that is myn or a plan that i have divised.
Its going to be fun lol. I have tackled the family and work, guess its just the friends left. I have already had confrontation from about 6 people on it. It gets really annoying hearing the same thing over and over and over.
Pixie replays '' Are you sure you should do this?''
ARHHHHHHHHH...... go away. If i didnt want to do it i wouldnt do it ok.
I think i am going to create a questionnaire. Yep, thats what im going to do. It will consist of two questions, do you think i should? or shouldnt?.
Im going to collect them all and then burn them HA HA HA.
I actually dont care whether people think this is a good idea or not. I believe that this is what i want completely.
It is sounding slightly like i need to prove that to myself aswell ( i think i may have to start work on that)
Anyway i cup of hot chocolate is calling me.
Blessed Be
Pixie x
It only took half an hour yayyyyyyy....
Ok i know you have no idea what im on about so i shall enlighten you :P:P
I have just spent the last half hour writing my resignation letter for work. Its really god damn difficult. I wanted to be nice and say that im not leaving because of them but i partly am. I hate it there lol. Although my main reason for leaving is Manga and wanting to travel i dont think hating my job put up much of an arguement for staying lol. I managed to keep in short and sweet with the help of my muse :D:D:D
Im glad she was here otherwize i would of bambled on for pages.
Everything else today has been really annoying and tedious. Im really pissed at a certain person and feel slightly like his human punch bag at the moment. Now im all up for being there for a friend but i dont appreciate getting abuse because his g/f is a physcotic, over paranoid freak.
* Little rant over (Pixie is officially mashed :D:D)*
I get to spend the next two months of my life running around like a headless chicken and trying to persuade people that it is a good idea to let me go off travelling with no real money that is myn or a plan that i have divised.
Its going to be fun lol. I have tackled the family and work, guess its just the friends left. I have already had confrontation from about 6 people on it. It gets really annoying hearing the same thing over and over and over.
Pixie replays '' Are you sure you should do this?''
ARHHHHHHHHH...... go away. If i didnt want to do it i wouldnt do it ok.
I think i am going to create a questionnaire. Yep, thats what im going to do. It will consist of two questions, do you think i should? or shouldnt?.
Im going to collect them all and then burn them HA HA HA.
I actually dont care whether people think this is a good idea or not. I believe that this is what i want completely.
It is sounding slightly like i need to prove that to myself aswell ( i think i may have to start work on that)
Anyway i cup of hot chocolate is calling me.
Blessed Be
Pixie x
Tuesday 3 February 2009
The holiday of snow
Ace Day :D:D:D
Ok, it may have started off slightly bad by having to go to work but none the less, it was FANTASTIC !!!!!
Yesterday just put me in an automatic good mood. We spent all day in the forest with my dog :D:D:D He apprantly quite likes the taste of snow lol !!!! It was amazing i got to kiss Manga. She completely put me on my back on a hill. I got so wet and so cold but i enjoyed every second of it!!! Its really weird coming out. You think your straight and then all of a sudden your not. I couldnt imagine any one better to do it with though :D:D:D:D
Anyway back to the forest. It was amazing, i love snow im like a child. I wanted to throw snow balls at every one and make angels every where (which i might add i did :D) Got filthy and frezzing cold i felt like i was 12 all over again. I didnt even worry about not going into work :P
Today, i got to tell my Managing Director and my Boss that i was leaving. If i had a camera at that point in time it would of been a classic. I think they are pleased for me but i think they are a tad annoyed im leaving at the beginning
Ok, it may have started off slightly bad by having to go to work but none the less, it was FANTASTIC !!!!!
Yesterday just put me in an automatic good mood. We spent all day in the forest with my dog :D:D:D He apprantly quite likes the taste of snow lol !!!! It was amazing i got to kiss Manga. She completely put me on my back on a hill. I got so wet and so cold but i enjoyed every second of it!!! Its really weird coming out. You think your straight and then all of a sudden your not. I couldnt imagine any one better to do it with though :D:D:D:D
Anyway back to the forest. It was amazing, i love snow im like a child. I wanted to throw snow balls at every one and make angels every where (which i might add i did :D) Got filthy and frezzing cold i felt like i was 12 all over again. I didnt even worry about not going into work :P
Today, i got to tell my Managing Director and my Boss that i was leaving. If i had a camera at that point in time it would of been a classic. I think they are pleased for me but i think they are a tad annoyed im leaving at the beginning
Sunday 1 February 2009
Would you like to follow me?? I wouldnt :P
Hi, Im Pixie,
This is my first ever blog and im really nervous!!! I am sat on my best friends bed pondering deeply on what to say. Im speechless (which i might add is something that doesnt happen to me very often :P)
I think im doing this to connect on a different level. I dont tend to write what happens in my life i draw it. Or get it tattooed.
Pixie Dreams is what this page shall be !!! I want to go on a walk so feel free to follow me. Warning... Do not follow if you are unable to remain calm when lost!!!!
This is going to be the start of my journey, in excatly 3 months i will be wondering off for a little gander of europe:D:D its sounds fun in my head and i actually think its a really good idea to get my muse back. I think she went for a little flutter around. Little cow needs to fly her arse back home, i have way to many tattoos to design to do for her to be playing off with the fairies!!!!!
It is impossible to draw legs. I have decided that legs are now my enemy for life!!!!
Wittering, its what i got told to do honestly :P:P I think i should be asleep really right now, I have a really hectic day at work planned for tommorrow. I have to some how break it to my managing director that i shall be pissing off in 3 months time. Ahhhhhhhh.......... i dont want to do it. Please dont make me (said with the most adament puppy dog eyes EVER) .
( I think i may be getting good at this wittering thing)
Any way, please enjoy my blog and follow me to where you want to be. It shall be an interesting journey with lots of curves in the road.
Blessed Be.
Pixie x
This is my first ever blog and im really nervous!!! I am sat on my best friends bed pondering deeply on what to say. Im speechless (which i might add is something that doesnt happen to me very often :P)
I think im doing this to connect on a different level. I dont tend to write what happens in my life i draw it. Or get it tattooed.
Pixie Dreams is what this page shall be !!! I want to go on a walk so feel free to follow me. Warning... Do not follow if you are unable to remain calm when lost!!!!
This is going to be the start of my journey, in excatly 3 months i will be wondering off for a little gander of europe:D:D its sounds fun in my head and i actually think its a really good idea to get my muse back. I think she went for a little flutter around. Little cow needs to fly her arse back home, i have way to many tattoos to design to do for her to be playing off with the fairies!!!!!
It is impossible to draw legs. I have decided that legs are now my enemy for life!!!!
Wittering, its what i got told to do honestly :P:P I think i should be asleep really right now, I have a really hectic day at work planned for tommorrow. I have to some how break it to my managing director that i shall be pissing off in 3 months time. Ahhhhhhhh.......... i dont want to do it. Please dont make me (said with the most adament puppy dog eyes EVER) .
( I think i may be getting good at this wittering thing)
Any way, please enjoy my blog and follow me to where you want to be. It shall be an interesting journey with lots of curves in the road.
Blessed Be.
Pixie x
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